Kendo Club - Nomikai + Karaoke

Rawr.

Ill try posting in english, since some of my readers now include international students. In a way I see myself as bilingual, but in another, its always just a bit harder... Not harder... Less natural? to post in english. But I shall make that sacrifice.

I have been a bit depressive lately. Not finding motivation for my courses, not reading or replying very late to e-mails, not studying as much as I should, getting colds, skipping out of training sessions...

I dont know why. The weather? Its nearing rainy season. Lack of a girlfriend? I've always been ok, and dont really feel the need for one (in fact, with two months remaining, I thik it would be more trouble than anything). Feeling left out because my friends from Proxy are often doing things and, because I'm not there, I tend to get forgotten or unincluded more and more? Dunno. Meh.

Kinda like the lightsaber thing. Some people at IHouse ordered lightsabers and they are now making a movie (http://x47.xanga.com/743b8af634d3055004509/b36860609.jpg). We played in a Star Wars RPG game and watched the Star Wars movies together. So when I see that, I cant help feeling "Wow, I used to be part of that gang". But now I feel bad saying those things because some of those people are perhaps reading this now, and can actually understand it now that its in english. but I told myself I would always be honnest in this blog and write everything I think and feel, for posterity, if you will. Now there is only a larger audience, It dosent mean I should go back on my oath. If people read this and feel I suck, then so be it. If they feel pity, so be it. If they feel I'm cool, whatever. Know that I try and write what I feel, no aims or goals, etc... Anyways.

Ive dyed my hair black, so now its short and black. I stand out amongst japanese, who mostly bleach their hair brown around here.

Anyways, I guess I'm starting to get out of it, little by little.

The photo was of last weekend, me and the Kendo club went to a nomikai (all you can drink) and karaoke. It was fun, but being the only foreigner at karaoke was strange. I knew almost none of their songs, and they didnt know alot of mine. I didnt sleep much that weekend, wich is probably why I have a cold now. Its not that bad of a cold right now, its just the cough that's a bitch.

I had a few philosophical talks with David and Matt lately, its fun, and I am always one for discussions, but I feel bad because I feel like I can never get my points accross for lack of explanative power or I just get plain misunderstood. Sometimes my arguments come off as too strong or it seems like im ignoring some facet of the matter when I just forgot to cover it, etc. That sucks. And the fact that I am the type of person that sees a research and remembers the outcome and conclusion, but without remembering the details of the research itself kinda sucks for me when im trying to give examples.

Anyhoo.

More later